~madman669

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!



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Well its certainly god to hear from you too. I'm sorry about Daria man. things with Sara and I went south a ways back and I just stopped coming here because I knew she was here...Bad times were afoot in my personal life then, very bad times. Not that they've gotten miraculously better, but they're better to a degree. I'm still getting pretty disillusioned with DA lately, I feel there's too much change, less serious art and more restrictions..feels less like a community...But maybe I'm just being my usual antisocial self and just distancing myself from things.. I'm writing less often lately. Stopped talking to a lot of my friends I was getting really tired of. A few others I just haven't talked to at all in a while..Need to fix that. One is in Europe right now, taking a month's vacation. I guess you get to do that when you're wealthy. I wouldn't know. Oh well. Family life is as strained as ever..My big brother is home for the week, with my sister-in-law and my little nephew. I'm an uncle man, its kinda cool. My plan is to school the kid on video games when he's older. That and rock music. Oh yeah. A lot of stuff sucks pretty hard right now, but other stuff is alright I guess. I just take it all as it comes. Stay well man, take care of yourself. glad to hear from you, I really don't have anybody interesting to talk to around here anymore. Or crazy at least, lol. Take care.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

Hey brother

Yeah I'm still around.. sometimes. I guess I'm now more needle lipped and winter eyed than I once was, and my fingers feel cold when I hold a pen.

This place.. has once given me something so beautiful that no words in any worlds could describe it, but despite mine, her.. our best effort that part of my life, which I now regard as best of it, wasnt static.. left somewhere. And when I sleep I see it's footprints. So yeah, Daria left. And every memory I have of this place somehow brings me back to her..
To quote someone I cant remember now "You'll never get your old self back... once you have loved like that"
It all feels like a card trick.

So I come back sometimes, read something once in a while but seldom talk..

The only place I really find peace these days is underwater, diving. Down where its very very black... inside wrecks or caves at night time somewhere around 45-50meters deep.. you have to use dual air tanks and an extra pony of 42% oxygen content nitrox for the decompression stop later to really understand it but there is a feeling there.. its as if you are touching death, it's soft, sweet and beatiful.. with whispers and dalliance.. and so like the touch of a lover it scares me, yet I always go back down whenever I can. And there are the flashlight fish that look like dancing stars all around you..

Hah.. but that could be just nitrogen narcosis.. I dont know.. maybe I've gone mad (confirm/advise?)

Right well.. to be honest yeah, Ive been away for a while.. needed to find something to do, to clear my head, to be somewhere far away from so many things that carried memories with it of how happy I once was. So I started diving, travelled around abit.. now that I come back this place feels alot more neutral now.. so maybe I'll come back here again.. maybe I'll write something .. we'll see

But yeah, its good to hear from you

This is the first time in like a month or longer that I've even logged into this stupid site. I do believe I have entirely lost interest in DA.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

So, I'm walking down the street the other day, thinking about how DA is a much better Live Journal than Live Journal, and someone up and kicked me in the balls.

Strangest thing, man.

Hey Katie!

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

hi dan!

This coming Thursday. After that, Saturday. I have the day off, but I'm going to a show that night.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

when is the next time you're off work? we'll hang.

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Put a bullet in my head and an arrow in my heart.

hehe i know that part... sick mind

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Its the part in the peep show, where the stripper faints, and Rocco starts fondling one of her boobs. The brothers are like, "What the fuck are you doing?" And Rocco's response is to put his hands up and yell, "I'll tip her!"

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

i know the movie but that quote doesnt rign a bell...

Catch you on the flip side.

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You did watch Boondock saints right? Its a line in the moviie. Rocco said it during the shooting in the peep show.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

"I'll tip her!"

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As a matter of fact my avatar is from the film "Equilibrium." Check it out. I am a big Boondock Saints fan though. Great movie.

"I'll tip her!"

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

isn't you avatar from The Boondock Saints?

i like it..

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Hello! Nice to hear from you.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

Hi Dan =3

Hello, ;3 just saying hi! ^-^

We sound like we're doing about the same. I'm mostly just really lonely over here and getting continuously frustrated that every time I meet a girl I find attractive, se's either dating someone, or hung up on a friend of mine...It sucks. I've been depressed and otimistic, kind of of and on, but I'm hanging in as best I can. Sometimes though I wondewr why I bother. Ah well. Well if you decide to leave DA, do keep in touch. My e mail addy and my AIM sn are both on mypage if you want to drop me a line outside of DA.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

I was leaving deviantart, I think i was going through one of those "why am i here" phases. Kind of caught me off guard.
Things over here are fine. Kind of up and down, mostly downs but I'm living. I think i'm one of those "I don't care" phases.

Damn those phases. *shakes fist violently*

How are things with you?

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True knowledge exists in knowing that you know nothing.

...Or you're back. Excellent. Good to have you back around DA. You keep that crowbar handy.

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What do we owe the most to our dreams? Our hopes, or our dissapointments?

Either I was just raped by a clear jar of honey or....

hello.. sorry about the progressive thing. but looking around for something else may show a little more worthwile. you never know. im fine. have a head cold but im fine. eric is fine. he and i are kinda seeing each other now and my mom loves him. heh. well.. thats all for now. byebye

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Won't you taint me just a little? Only a little...

hmm well thanks for your opinion